Time changes everything, even you and I have changed

♥ CLAUDIATAN
Twenty-One , 16th October 1990
Complicated , Not Available


The rain, the winter spring has made us fade away







Inevitabe Love ♥








“life will be better in spring”
May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 April 2011 May 2011 June 2011 July 2011 August 2011 September 2011 October 2011 November 2011 December 2011 January 2012 February 2012 March 2012 April 2012 May 2012 July 2012

Monday, July 16, 2012 || 1:37 AM

I'm moving on , i guess .
It's just the ring that couldn't be remove :')

Tuesday, May 01, 2012 || 4:13 PM

你要结婚了,祝你幸福,永远 :)

Monday, April 02, 2012 || 3:57 PM

Is this just the beginning or you will always be so good to me ?

Sunday, March 18, 2012 || 3:03 PM

我就等到这里了。
已经没有任何理由让我继续坚持。
很快你们就会结婚,有自己的家。
我。。。还是一个人。

Thursday, March 01, 2012 || 3:25 PM

连生病了,第一个想到的,还是你 :(

Tuesday, February 21, 2012 || 4:49 PM

一切都只是谎言。
你过得很幸福。
那我呢?

Tuesday, February 14, 2012 || 8:29 PM

当你在跟她吃饭时,有没有想起现在的我还是很想你?

|| 1:24 PM

Happy Valentine
我还记得去年的情人节 :)

Monday, February 13, 2012 || 2:59 PM

Glad that you found your happiness :)
你会很幸福的。

Thursday, February 09, 2012 || 4:08 PM





|| 3:58 PM

我依然还在等待

Thursday, January 19, 2012 || 6:32 PM

A good boyfriend:

- is not a flirt
When you're at a party, look at how he socialises. Separate from him, and then watch him while he's solo. If he is just having civil conversation, fantastic. If you see him touching and complimenting another woman and his eyes roving all over the place, that's not good.
If you really like him, then at some point after the party talk to him about how that made you feel. Chances are he probably didn't know that his behaviour made you feel bad or was disrespectful. However, if he continues to flirt with other women, then he’s being very clear not only about who he is, but also about how little he respects you.

- makes time for you
If your boyfriend is spending a lot of time with you (and it's not just for sex), it's a very positive sign. Some guys may not be very comfortable expressing feelings of love but they may spend every available opportunity with you because they love you.
Even if he cannot meet you, a man who is involved with his relationship will always find an excuse to call you, be it to share a thought, or ask your opinion or because he misses you.

- is not a bad loser and is a gracious winner
How a guy loses can tell you who he is... especially if you're the one that beat him! How a man responds to defeat tells you how mature he is. Apart from not being a sore loser, the mark of a good man (and hence a good boyfriend and partner for you) is that he is humble about winning. This means not gloating and rubbing it in your face when he does get ahead at something or when he is right in an argument.

- tells you that he loves you
...and means it. Many men use fake declarations of love in order to manipulate women. They just say what you want to hear. And on the other extreme are the men who are commitment phobes who find it nearly impossible to tell you that he loves you... even after months and months of courtship.
A good boyfriend won't be ashamed of his love for you. He will not hide it from his family or friends. And most of all, he will not hide it from you.

- is not volatile
Couples, even the best ones, will fight. When you have your first fight, pay attention to it. You can tell just about everything you need to know about a person by the way they fight. You simply do not know someone until you’ve had a fight with them. How violent? Rational? Crazy are they? How fast and easily does he erupt and how long does the anger last. Does he hold grudges?
When you disagree, and your boyfriend starts attacking you verbally or physically, then he's not a man, he's a beast. If he is rational, sticks to the point and actually listens and gives you a chance to explain, then you have a good boyfriend. Keep him, and treat him well.

- lets you be yourself
A good boyfriend does not try to control or change you but is attracted to you for who you are. If he is overly possessive, critical, irrationally jealous or dictates what you can or cannot do, then he is a bad boyfriend. A good boyfriend plays more of a supportive role and seeing you happy makes him happy.
Actually, when you look at it simply, a good boyfriend should have all the qualities you want in a best friend ...... oh and, of course there needs to be sexual compatibility too! :)

Tuesday, January 17, 2012 || 10:59 AM

Our Heart Will Always Remain As One ♥
I love you always , my dear :)

Sunday, January 15, 2012 || 5:49 PM

原来看见自己心爱的人开心,自己脸上也会不知不觉挂上笑容 ♥

Saturday, January 14, 2012 || 9:58 AM

We all came to a part of our life whereby leaving is not the only choice , but choose instead .
You might have left , you might have move on , you might not love me anymore .
But the more you push me away , the more i want to fight for it .
Yes , i couldn't afford to lose , because you taught me what is trust and love .
Perhaps one day you will come back , perhaps that day will never come .
You wanted freedom than me , this gave me so much reason to let go , but i couldn't .
I'm still trying , very very hard , not to cry , to move on , to lead my own life .

Friday, January 13, 2012 || 6:32 PM

因为你是我这一生最爱的人,真的不想放手。
回来好吗?

|| 9:38 AM

I wonder if you still read my blog to know my thoughts .

Wednesday, January 11, 2012 || 11:16 PM

Every night i go to bed thinking of you , what about you ? :)

|| 4:46 PM

You're constantly on my mind , dear ♥

|| 10:20 AM

Silently waiting for you return .
No matter how long it's gonna take .

Sunday, January 08, 2012 || 11:43 AM

I love you too much to let you go like that .
Can we have another chance , please ? :'(

Thursday, January 05, 2012 || 5:24 PM

Remember what your reply was when i asked playfull if you need to change a girlfriend ?
You told me "can i ?"
Now you can , leading a happy life without me and hurt me like nothing .
Guys are really 情绪化 .
One moment treat you super good , another moment ignore you .
Suddenly feel like laughing at myself .
Why did i even land myself in such a state .

cuts are not even as hurting as how you had hurt me ...

|| 10:35 AM

I'm so afraid to meet you .
I'm so afraid that it will be the last time .
I'm so afraid of losing you .
Can i just love you solely like how i used to ? :'(

Tuesday, January 03, 2012 || 11:01 PM

我决定让你拥有自己的幸福,你会快乐一点。
我会一直等到你找到幸福的对象才放弃。
想要跟你走到最后,可是我门的终点应该就到这里了。
还记得你的每一句话,“没有人没了谁会死”,所以只要你幸福就好 :)

Friday, December 30, 2011 || 10:30 AM

我知道我不够好。
希望你会幸福...

|| 12:27 AM

I'm totally boken .
Though there were plenty of tears dripping ,
Tons of thoughts ,
But i believe next one will be better :)
加油 (^x^)

Friday, December 23, 2011 || 11:58 PM

It doesn't matter if you're away 1 week or 1 month ,
Still you will never miss me .
Utterly disappointed .

Thursday, December 22, 2011 || 10:38 PM

This isn't love at all . Fcuk .
I shouldn't say i don't deserve you ,
You actually don't deserve me .
Waste time .

|| 12:31 AM

Have i been loved by you before ?
I always thought it was something which no one has ever given me .
But then again , you're so much more important than i am .

I was never loved .

Saturday, December 17, 2011 || 12:37 AM

Shouldn't a boyfriend at least try to act like you care when you're together ?
Even if it's not true , even if it's just acting , even if it's making your girl smile for a moment ..
It is so hard ?

Yes , definitely a tough task for you .
To even spent one night with me ,
To fall asleep with me ,
To have one proper conversation .
To do anything .
So impossible .

Because a man will never think how a woman is thinking .
Because they will never be so free to spare a thought .

Saturday, December 10, 2011 || 11:52 PM

又过了一个月,还是没有觉得应该本来属于自己拥有的感觉。
在多一个月,还是站在原地,根本都没有分别。

Wednesday, November 23, 2011 || 2:52 AM

I feel like crying , but there seems no tears any more .
The worst feeling ever . hais .
Can i end everything , now ?

|| 2:23 AM

失去了才懂得珍惜的人往往是失败者。
而懂得珍惜紧紧握在手里的人才是赢家。
不会再等不值得的人,因为根本不值得。
彻底的死心 < / 3

|| 2:11 AM

有时候等的再久也不会等到你想要的结局。
此地的放弃会比较实际。

Monday, November 14, 2011 || 12:36 AM

我真的要放手了。
你……

|| 12:26 AM

I don't want a relationship like that :'(

|| 12:12 AM

好想有一个真心爱我的人 ^^
一下子也好……

Monday, October 31, 2011 || 12:41 AM

学会松开就是成长的第一步 ^^
幸福不是自己争取的,而是两个人为了同一个目标加油。

Thursday, October 13, 2011 || 5:54 PM

没听见,没感觉,什么都不要管,不管多在意都要装作不在意。
这样,就不会再受伤 ^^

Tuesday, October 11, 2011 || 4:02 PM

有一天我会真的变的坚强。
不会再是表面上的坚强。
不会掉眼泪,不会心痛。
有一天我也会值得幸福。

|| 3:53 PM

一直哭,都不知道在哭什么。
眼睛很累,心很痛。

|| 1:06 PM

我们真的分手了。
你会过的很幸福因为你值得拥有幸福。

Monday, October 10, 2011 || 2:27 AM

人就是那么奇怪,需要的的时候就甜言蜜语,不需要的时候就不联络/见面,长大的世界真可怕。好希望能有一个永远都会疼爱我,能偶尔能让我像小孩子一样的在他身边,依赖着他。现实的生活里不可能会有这个人吧?可怕的是我的生活中有太多太多人了,而没有真真能了解我的人。我是需要一个能让我发牢骚,能跟我一起赞同我的说法,偶尔能为我做点傻事的人,我不开心的时候不用我说他也会知道的人,偶尔带我去走走,买我想要的东西,看看戏的人,常常打电话跟我聊聊天的人,能接受我就是我的人,这个人真的很难找。有时我又觉得我的要求很多。往往看见我身边的女朋友都过的那么幸福会嫉妒。有时安慰自己‘我看见的只是表面’,谁知道可能他们也有埋怨。有时觉得埋怨的越多也只是多余的。就是走错了那一步,节下来的日子也只能吐气吞声。好多事情都很想找个人来诉苦,可是那又不会解决我的问题。应该真的是我的问题吧。可能我对人的态度或一举一动不够好,应该改。可是改了我还是我吗?应该是我真的很糟吧,不然也不会有人对我说我很糟。一个礼拜后就真的长大了,二十一岁了。去年的愿望是能让我遇见一个能接受我的过错,真真了解我,不会对我说没时间陪我做任何事,对我超好的人。还以为愿望真的实现了,可是因为走错了一步,不值得让我的愿望实现吧。今年在我的生日蛋糕上不会许愿了。二十年来的愿望从来没有实现过。二十一的也应该是一样的。因为是二十一岁的生日,以为应该跟我一起计划的人是身边最亲或是男朋友。可是都不是。虽然有点失望,但都不要紧了。过了生日,我就会找分工好好的一直做下去,什么都不重要了。长大了,应该会想了吧。没有任何人都不会死,没有钱才真的会死。其实一个人没什么不好的。

Saturday, October 08, 2011 || 2:18 AM

Counting down to 16th October , i'll be officially 21 years old ^^
Celebrating at Costa Sand Resort , Pasir Ris on the day itself .
Resort booked :) Cake ordered :)) Food and beverages ordered =D
Everything settled ^^


Thanks to Kevin korkor ^^
Off day bring me to order cake then BBQ wholesale to have all my enquiries answered :))
Now i can sit back and relax and wait for the day ^^


Watched 'Real Steel' yesterday then 'The Change-Up' today =D
Both was a great show :)


Still thinking whether to help Bel by being her sister on her wedding day on the 15th October .
First , theme was pink/white which i have neither .
Second , first time being sister =X
Third , it falls on the day before my birthday -.-
So , i'm still thinking ..




I've learnt that i can never rely on anyone anymore .
It was just for a moment that i thought i can rely on someone .
But reality brought me back to cruelty .
I still have to stand on my own , always will and never changed .